I haven't been checking my blog for such a long time, I almost forgot I have a blog. Mainly it's because of the SNS such as mixi, myspace, orkut etc. I was able to re-connect with many of my old friends through these SNS, and was very comfortable not to do blog.
I already mentioned that why I stopped blog, although, I start doing live visuals for DJ, Clubs, Bands as such, which is my most favorite creative output nowadays. Many people call me as VJ, although, VJ is not something well known for many people, so I thought that I would like to write down my experiences here.
Come to see this blog more often if you are interested in VJ. I would be happy to share my stories.
I was extremely busy at work in these days, but I really like it because I am very passionate about my project now. I start saying things for what I think it really matters. Without telling my opinion to others, things never change.
It took me quite some time to adjust the corporate culture, I mean, all kinds of political bullshits among people. I was fighting against many of invisible things, and leaned a lot from there. Anyway, I was lucky enough to focus on my work, and I always believed that the things I produce are true message from me.
At the same time, I wasn't confident enough to speak up my thoughts to others. Everytime I spoke something to others, I had to be conscious about my English-and-Japanese brain function and I had to be in the dual-processor mode during the conversation. Sometimes I become extremely stressful since I am not even telling things more than 20% of what I really know. What I say is who I am. This is true, and I always felt I am not presenting myself well..., I finally feel confident about my speaking in these days. :)
Many things are happening to me in these days. Of course, it's all positive things. I recognize everything, both good and bad, as a message of developing myself..., it's like a continuous awareness of my life.
I am in a stage of new-thinking-mode. Many ideas are coming to me and I am excited about it. Of course, it's about the software, and it's about the future of design and visual communication.
Long time to blog
I just noticed that I should have noted something before I stop blogging. Here are several reasons why I stop doing this.1. I understood how blog works.
This is one of the goal I wanted to figure out throughout my blogging days. Now, I know what's going on behind the scene, and I kind of start loosing my interest to keep me up on blog. I rather like to discover another interectual interest at this moment.2. Routine is not a good thing to me.
Along with the point above, daily routine makes me sick sometimes. I sometimes had this feeling when I posted something on blog. I don't like the feeling of "I need to blog this because it's my daily habit!".3. I am not really sure who is reading this blog.
This feeling sometimes makes me hard to write down something. Content needs to be published to certain audience and it's purpose. I had hard time to keep motivation on this.4. Communication can be simpler.
Is blog really helping my communication? Well, I don't think so. How many comments I got into this blog? Not many. How many American friends who is reading this? I don't know. Is my Japanese friends reading this? I am not sure.
Were there any comversation with work friends after I posted something interested? No. I always feel like posting something on blog is thinking about gray area where I am not sure whether I should post. I was having another frustration here, and thought that just sending email to particular group gets much more interesting replies.5. Blog as Karaoke
I think blog is like Karaoke. There is a drag of Karaoke phenomenon - I am not a professional singer but I can sing a song in front of people and become a temp star at the night.
Same can be applied to blog - I can write down something, but I am not a professional writer.
I thought that I should have more focus on areas where I hold my speciality. I think I can make something decent using Flash..., well, blog and Flash is not well integrated yet. So I will focus on Flash and some of Interactive technology for a while.
having said that, I say "Peace Out" for now.
I hope to make something new by myself in the near future.
A happy New Year for 2005
It's been hard to be positive when I look at those of world news which tells me many people were died or suffered from disasters. I think some sort of negative coincidence happened a lot for last few years, and I hope the year 2005 will be a turning point where things turn to the upward-spiral path.
I would hope that the next year will be a peaceful one.
Peace on Earth!
Aftermath of X'mas
I bought a new car. It's a Saab 92x Linear
model. This car is fantastic. The interesting point is that the platform technology of the car is shared with Japanese car maker Subaru. The base car is the well known WRC winning AWD car, Impreza WRX.
Even though my 92x model doesn't have Turbo, the ride comfort is quite impressive and I love driving this car a lot. I saw several motor review sites which claims the car is just a rebbadge. Well, I don't think so. The car obviously has Subaru character like AWD, but that thing is obviously better technology than Saab currently lacking, and Saab did good job for fine tuning the ride quality and comfort.
The result is: My friend who owns Saab 93 told me that Saab 92x has similar ride feeling with 93. My friend who owns Subaru Impressa/Outback also said similar thing to me. So, I think the car has good mixture of both car makers, and I think it's a win-win combinations. :)
Also, this car reminds me how important I should think about my budgeting. Now I have monthly payments for this car but the car made me think about life in many ways. I'm confident that I made a great choice, and am very motivated to develop myself more in coming years.
Having said that, saving money would be a top priority for 2005. My life style would change quite a bit. ;)
Yes, we got the prize from MacWorld UK! This is a beginning of the new face of Quark. :)
Interesting sets of articles on CNET. I think the point is: Japan is always in a process of tranforming itself, which makes Japan as a unique country and producing comsumer products in global context. It's a sort of cultural remix.